mom2binnyc

I left a note giving my 2 weeks notice to the manager last night at sbux. I just can't do it any more. I'm exhausted and the extra money has been nice but it is not worth it to me.

I feel very PMSy. Last night at sbux I felt like crying the entire time I was there for no reason really. And I have cramps. And my face is broken out like it is before I get my period. A small part of me is still hopeful, but I really feel like my period is going to start. So we're going to have to figure out what to do (take a break? start a 3rd cycle?).

It's only been 1 week since we did the IUIs so it really is way early for my period to start. So maybe these are actually signs of pregnancy?!?!

But my cycle this month was abnormal becuase of the chemical pregnancy and drugs, so maybe I'll get my period today.

I got home at 1:00 last night from sbux, C was waiting up for me, and I just started crying. it's all hormones and being tired i think. I just wish i knew if the hormones were from period or pregnancy.

This is the emotional roller coaster ride everyone talks about. It sucks. we just have to wait and see what is going on inside me.

I hate this.