mom2binnyc

After a nice weekend of good friends taking good care of us, it has been a no go on the pregnancy this time. Period.

Damn. We were close. What happened is called a chemical pregnancy, which is a very early miscarriage. We haven't been calling it a miscarriage (even though it was) because that seems too painful. There was potential for a baby, but that potential didn't go anywhere.

Back the the RE tomorrow. They called asking where we were today. We've decided to collapse the pregnancy test (gonna be a negative) and the day 2 bloodwork into the same visit. Hopefully we will get the go ahead to try again this month.

The sucky thing about that is the timing...ovulation (and insemination, which has to occur in the REs office) will happen during the exact weekend we are going to MA for a friends wedding. I think we may have to inseminate, drive to MA for wedding, celebrate the nuptials, then drive back down to inseminate again the next morning. Puts a little cramp in our relaxing weekend plan, but we'll survive. Hopefully the outcome will be better this time around.

We're doing OK. Both our nerves are a little shot and we've both been a little testy. I feel a little lonely with all of this. The hardest part was that I was so excited to call our parents and enlist their support when we thought we were pregnant...but now I don't want to call, even though the support would be nice.

Keep thinking about us and sending positive energy...

I'm tired.